What Jam wants, Jam doesn’t always get…

When I came here in the US on the 3rd of July of 2008, I didn’t know exactly what God’s plans for me are. I just knew it was His will for me to be here, that’s why I got a visa, and so I thought my own plans will work out the way I want them to.

But things didn’t come easy for me. I had to do odd jobS…I had to experience heartbreakS (yes, that’s plural too)...felt weak, unable and hopeless many times.

I always say that I get what I want. But here’s the exact truth: What Jam wants, Jam doesn't always get...

And I’ve learned why.

That is because, sometimes, my Father wants something better for me. It’s true that He never says no to me.* Actually, He simply wants what's best for me! So whenever I settle for something average, or when I resort to mediocrity due to lack of self-confidence, He always comes to the rescue. All these years in my life, I've learned, and continue to learn, that I can do anything and everything, with God who strengthens me. It took some time before I truly believed in myself. It took a lot of good talking and motivating from the people who love me, and believe in me, before I truly claimed that, in the words of a good friend of mine, I was born to excel!

For the past 2 years that I’ve been here, there’s so much to be thankful for. God hasn’t stopped blessing me, so I haven’t stopped counting the blessings either. Let me, again, continue counting.**

Since I set foot here, I went from…

…being jobless…to doing odd jobs…and now, to doing the work that I love most…and that is teaching!

…tourist visa…to student visa…to working visa…and soon, God-willingly, to immigrant visa!

…being a proud aunt for the first time (Leon)…for the second time (Franchesca a.k.a. Odany)…and in a few more months, for the third time (no name yet)! ;j

…being engaged…to being single…to being able to move on…to being in love again…to being hurt again…and to moving on again. At least I know that I can always get up after a fall.

Plus!

I am still able to help my family, no matter how meager my salary is. And, I am actually working on and looking forward to a lot of things, one of which is going back to school.

What a good year it was! :j

Yes, I don’t always get just what I want…

Because I always get more…pressed down, shaken together and running over! :) And I have a very generous Father to thank for all the blessings. :j



* http://jamhernandez.blogspot.com/2010/04/how-do-you-know-if-its-no.html
** http://jamhernandez.blogspot.com/2009/07/big-1.html