Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Fallin'

It hurts, still.

Especially when there’s no one to catch you when you fall...

When it leaves wounds that you know will take time to heal...

When there’s no one to blame but yourself...

But what’s good with it is that, every fall reminds me that I can always get up afterwards, no matter how bad it may seem. I’ve always been good at it actually...And I do it fast…really fast! No dwelling too much on the pain, not much shedding of tears. I just stand up again and walk forward, without looking back.

Yes, call me stupid but I fell again... got wounded one more time... and no one was there to catch me. As always, I stood up quickly, and just continued walking...as if nothing happened. I didn’t even bother looking back.

It took a while after I became aware of the damage it caused…

My pants, as well as my underpants (warmer), got ripped at the knees. Then I realized, my knee was bleeding too.

Yes...this morning, on my way to work, a block away from our house... for the third time since I got here in NY, I slipped and fell again! This time, on snow and ice. Funny as it may seem, but the three spots where I had fallen were just a couple of steps away from each other. Never learned my lesson huh?!

Is it trying to tell me something?

Should I change the way I walk? Try another route? Buy another pair of shoes?

Or better yet, should I just look for someone who will be there to catch me the next time I fall?

Whatever it is, as always, I still am ready for the next fall...either to get up on my feet again, or to fall so deep, because I am certain, Someone up there is going to catch me, no matter what happens. ;j