Saturday, July 03, 2010

What Jam wants, Jam doesn’t always get…

When I came here in the US on the 3rd of July of 2008, I didn’t know exactly what God’s plans for me are. I just knew it was His will for me to be here, that’s why I got a visa, and so I thought my own plans will work out the way I want them to.

But things didn’t come easy for me. I had to do odd jobS…I had to experience heartbreakS (yes, that’s plural too)...felt weak, unable and hopeless many times.

I always say that I get what I want. But here’s the exact truth: What Jam wants, Jam doesn't always get...

And I’ve learned why.

That is because, sometimes, my Father wants something better for me. It’s true that He never says no to me.* Actually, He simply wants what's best for me! So whenever I settle for something average, or when I resort to mediocrity due to lack of self-confidence, He always comes to the rescue. All these years in my life, I've learned, and continue to learn, that I can do anything and everything, with God who strengthens me. It took some time before I truly believed in myself. It took a lot of good talking and motivating from the people who love me, and believe in me, before I truly claimed that, in the words of a good friend of mine, I was born to excel!

For the past 2 years that I’ve been here, there’s so much to be thankful for. God hasn’t stopped blessing me, so I haven’t stopped counting the blessings either. Let me, again, continue counting.**

Since I set foot here, I went from…

…being jobless…to doing odd jobs…and now, to doing the work that I love most…and that is teaching!

…tourist visa…to student visa…to working visa…and soon, God-willingly, to immigrant visa!

…being a proud aunt for the first time (Leon)…for the second time (Franchesca a.k.a. Odany)…and in a few more months, for the third time (no name yet)! ;j

…being engaged…to being single…to being able to move on…to being in love again…to being hurt again…and to moving on again. At least I know that I can always get up after a fall.

Plus!

I am still able to help my family, no matter how meager my salary is. And, I am actually working on and looking forward to a lot of things, one of which is going back to school.

What a good year it was! :j

Yes, I don’t always get just what I want…

Because I always get more…pressed down, shaken together and running over! :) And I have a very generous Father to thank for all the blessings. :j



* http://jamhernandez.blogspot.com/2010/04/how-do-you-know-if-its-no.html
** http://jamhernandez.blogspot.com/2009/07/big-1.html

11 comments:

Anonymous said...

inspiring! :) Reading it made me realized that I should be persistent in prayers for things and people that I want in my life, but then, I should also accept that I may not get what I want sometimes because He is reserving something better for me... Hope you will continue writing and inspiring...

jAmiLaH said...

thank you..and be blessed! :)

Nadine said...

Ms. Jam! Just want to share this with you. While I was reading, I was reminded with one of your blogs. This made me feel a little better and it was a good read so I am giving you the link.. God bless!

http://paulocoelhoblog.com/2010/10/12/closing-cycles-eng-espa-port/

Anonymous said...

Ms. Jam,

I can't say that I came across your blog accidentally. I can't also say that I searched for it. Let's just say certain events conspired that I was able to came to know of this site. I don't know you personally. It is quite difficult to write what I want to say and probably in time, I will have the courage to give you the details and maybe share to you as to how I came to know your name. Don't worry, I am not a stalker. I have been meaning to write, but I guess, I was kinda scared.

Anyways, I just want to say that unexpectedly you became a source of inspiration for me. Your writings somehow lifted my spirits when I was so down and almost on the verge of giving up. Your experiences made me realized that just like anybody else, I have to go through hurt and pain to become better and stronger. Thank you and I hope in time, I get to tell you my story and how I came across your site.

I hope you continue on writing and inspiring people. You may not know it, but your writings create impact in someone else life. I pray for your success! Thank you for taking the time to read this.

jAmiLaH said...

thank you...though you intrigue me a lot. pls feel free to email me @ jam8581@yahoo.com.don't be scared, i don't bite.:) Godbless!

Anonymous said...

Ms. Jam,

That is sweet of you. I will email you one of these days. My story as to how I came to know of you, is a long one and I am getting the courage to email you and share the story. Slightly amusing as to how I got a hold of your site, but I also would like to believe that it is with Divine Providence that I was able to do so. I am more amazed that you gave time to respond to my comment and realized that you really have a kind heart. Salamat ng marami!

jAmiLaH said...

thank you! i'll look forward to that. :) take care and Godbless. :)

Anonymous said...

Yes, I will, in time. I am still kinda hesitant because I do not know how to start as well as how you will take everything when you finally read my story. But, I also feel that I owe you a great deal of thanks because your writings have really helped me into overcoming something that we had experience in common. And as well as the request that I will be making to not make it known to someone that I e-mailed you. Intriguing, I know.. And I could have not emailed you, but a greater part of me, really wants to say how much you have helped a stranger like me.

Anyways, I will be emailing you soon. I hope and pray that you inspire more strangers like me, although in time, I will not be anymore.

God bless you too, and you deserve all the blessings and the happiness that this world can offer.

jAmiLaH said...

make it soon pls..i am guessing we have a common friend? hmm..i am more than intrigued now.hehe don't worry, everything will just be between the 2 of us..unless that person reads these comments..(fyi..everyone can see everything here..:) but seriously, worry not about how i'd feel..i can take everything, whatever it is.i have HIM to back me up.:) be blessed! looking forward to finally get to know you.:)

Anonymous said...

:) sent the email already, Ms. Jam! Again, thank you! God bless!

Ai said...

Ms. Jam, I hope it's okay for me to follow your site.. And please also visit my blog site. I am a newbie so I am still trying to figure it out.

Again, thank you! God bless!